Every once in a while I feel an emotional break, the dam holding the darkness inside gives way.
A cascade of sadness and self designated worthlessness leads the wake.
You see a steely stoic demeanor, but as soon as you turn away – the tears will flood my face.
Constantly thinking of other’s needs and attempts of inclusion – Friends appear to be an illusion to placate.
Surrounded by smiling people, but it’s nothing truly meaningful. I’m not good enough without change, as person I called “brother” attacks me with their faith.
Even for a friend I was willing to relocate, but now that I’m here – I unknowingly did something for them to alienate.
On a day like today, I truly wonder if the world would notice if I wasn’t here, or would it even care if I had the strength to show it the tears streaming down my face?
Phoenix From Words 
I’d notice.
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Thank you ☺️
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In many ways this is such a relatable post. Know that you’re not alone and that there are more people than you even realize that would notice your absence in this world. Keep sharing and spreading your light.
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Thank you for your kindness!
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