Thank you for joining me on this adventure of mine as I battle with depression. From here I am unsure where exactly this road of words will take us in life, I just hope the future chapters are better than the chapters already in dried ink.
If you’re alive; you write a new word with every breath you take, every exhale becomes a sentence, and every action forms a paragraph. Over time the story of your life flows as the story in your book grows.
My story is about personal growth, perseverance, and writing my own destiny against all odds and I am beyond excited to write and share my foreseeable chapters of life here with those willing to read them.
Depression is something I have been battling with a very long time and over the years I have found a few things that have worked to keep me from sinking too deep. Traditionally reading novels, staying busy, building things with my hands, and keeping my mind engaged on puzzles like Sudoku helped me stay afloat. That all changed on me three months ago and those things no longer did the job as needed.
Upon realizing this the panic became real as I could feel the oncoming onslaught of darkness nipping at my heels. I started searching for a new way to combat it, anything and everything. I was struggling. One day I had an epiphany that maybe if I write how I am feeling, maybe – just maybe it could help me understand what it is that causing this. So I started writing and I let the words flow like tears. My emotions tingled through my finger tips as my brain sent electrical pulses to the nerves in my hand, creating a fluidity of movement as pen met paper.
As it turns out, I discovered am actually pretty good at writing and capturing the raw emotions of how I’m feeling and now I am here to share my writings with you.
My goal with this Blog is to help someone and by in way help myself. If you battle with depression and you are unable to put words to feelings, maybe my words can help you verbalize your own pain. Within the ability to be able to verbalize your pain, maybe this act can give you the power to defeat it through personal understanding. At the minimum I genuinely hope it will help someone in pursuit of professional help to better articulate their own depression and receive better treatment as result. Brothers and Sisters, we are in this together.
My name is Darren Deason and this is my battle with depression.
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
Phoenix From Words 